When did the diamonds leave your bones?

Well it’s NYE and I hope tonight is fun.

I just went and bought phone credit (so I can txt the people I love happy new year) and some alcohol (to drink, duh).

I bought a cask of ‘cosmopolitan’ I hope it’s yummy :P

I hope tonight I can cross out one of my new years resolutions which is “Have a good NYE” I’ve spent a lot less money than last year which is a great start!

Hopefully I will be in a good mood all night!

For now I’m going to eat toast/drink vanilla coffee and watch Gossip Girl until it’s time to get ready.

I bought the most ridiculously huge false lashes to wear, I can’t wait! 

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I just want to waste the day because I will have nothing to do and I just can’t face another day with these people.

I used to be able to wake up as late as 1 pm, now I struggle to stay asleep till 10 am D:

It’s so hard to stay awake because I’m so goddamn bored.

I can’t watch TV because my siblings are asleep in the loungeroom, can’t really use the internet because it’s slower than ever (took half an hour just to open the new text page) and I have nothing good to read.

Laaaaame.

I just want this year to be over already.

2011 has undoubtedly, 150% been the absolute worst year of my life. 

It was the year

• I sat around pretty much all year doing nothing, I’m at an age where I could have done absolutely anything and I wasted it completely
• Pretty much ruined my relationship with my sister beyond repair
• Lost my best friend
• Spent so many hours of my life attending appointments for Centrelink and employment offices and sitting on train to and from them and sitting in their waiting rooms
• Wasted so much time writing cover letters and applying for jobs to no avail 
• Got two and quit two shitty jobs
• Shittest Christmas I’ve ever had

All that shitty stuff outweighed all the good stuff that happened like

• Meeting/hugging Craig Owens
• Making a few new friends
• Going to a few good concerts
• Getting a puppy
• Getting over somebody 1000000% and not being “trapped” by the feeling of being in love with someone who was always going to be an asshole
• Getting along with my Mum for the first time in years
• Finding out that MCR are playing in Sydney twice in two days and having Ebony buy my ticket for me

There was probably a lot more good and bad things that happened but I can’t think of them right now.

I know everybody says this every year but I am determined to make next year a lot better than this year. Which hopefully shouldn’t be too hard considering how hard this year sucked.

New years resolutions are pointless but imma make some anyway

1. Make an effort to make new friends
   - actually leaving the house
   -being generally more friendly
   -accepting invitations to do things
   -making an effort to socialise with people at TAFE
2.  Pick my fights wisely
   - I’m always going to be the sort of person to have heated arguments with people, but I need to start thinking about when it’s worth it and when it’s not
   -I know my family view me as immature because of all the fights I have with people (in my family)
   -If I start or participate in pointless fights nobody will take me seriously when something of actual importance comes up  
   - I need to lighten up, learn to take a deep breath and let the little things go
3.  Get my p’s 
   - I can’t actually do that until late November, but I need to get over my fear of driving
   -Not give up and just relax and stop freaking out
   - I’ve lived my whole life being raised by someone who doesn’t drive and it truly is the most fucking inconvenient thing ever
4.  Get a job
   - Not that I haven’t tried this year but it has to be done, I want to move out and buy amazing furniture and that just simply can’t happen without an income
5. Do well at TAFE and get a job in that field
   - I’m pretty sure it’s what I want to do and I need to make sure I concentrate and try my hardest to make that happen
6. Eat healthy 
   - This year I already started eating wholemeal bread, always drinking sugar free soft drink and not having sugar in my tea or coffee but I need to start doing more
7. Actually save for and buy my Macbook
   - I was supposed to have done that this year but I didn’t so I need to sacrifice more and make sure that I actually get it soon 
8. Collect and read more books
   -I own hardly any decent books and I actually love reading and I rarely do it
   -So I want to find out about good books, buy them and read them on the trips to and from TAFE
9.  Have a good NYE
   - I mean no crying, no being emo, no drinking too much, no whingeing, just drinking enough to be happy and buzzed, talk to  new people and not be a snob and go home without having ruined peoples night and being able to wake up guilt free and hopefully not hungover 
   - For me that’s a lot harder then it sounds
10. Make myself proud
    -I know that sounds lame, but I mean it
    - For some reason my family is proud of me despite me having achieved next to nothing
    - But I am disappointed at where I am in my life and I want to feel satisfied of what I have done and be proud of myself 

I really feel determined to make all these things a reality, I am in charge of my own life and I can only blame my problems on the world for so long.

Now I just want it to be February so I can start TAFE. 

He has a curly/matted mullet/rats tail combination, a goatee and ratty mustache and a chest tattoo that says “one life, one chance”

Uh, ewwwww.

Mum:

• Red teapot
• Purr by Katy Perry perfume
• Leopard print ballet flats
• leopard print dress
• Makeup
• Orange head band thingy
• amethyst earrings
• Skeleton necklace
• crucifix earrings
• PJs 

Dad:

• $100

Grandparents:

• $50

Aunty:

• $50

Charli:

• Babushka doll salt and pepper shakers

Ebony:

• Bought me an MCR ticket for the 27th/1 :D

Did pretty well, and I have $250 for my computer fund (although I already spent $35 of it at the movies the other day :( booo)